so..its been a while..and here im writing coz i have nothing else to do,or rather nothing else that i feel like doing.
anyways,its weird..suddenly everyone around me seems to be saying " life has become boring".Even if i talk to a friend after really long..after precisely 3 minutes (if not lesser), the 1st "so wat else is up?" crops us.small talk. Minute 5: "so wat else". some more small talk.Minute 6: "umm..so..wats up".Min 6and a half: chal then,i'l catch u later.we really should meet up,its been long. *in my mind*-what ever happened to us..how come i dont have stuff to talk abt????
Its just really random...maybe its a phase.its more like suddenly everything in life seems more routine than ever. Its not that i had the most happening life ever,but i was at some level happy,content..or I wasnt thinking.Now suddenly..i seem to be thinking and thinking that everything around me is boring..everything is a big farce...we are all just living cz we were born.I know this is a super morbid thought..it seems to be sucking out life, like a leech sucking blood,or maybe for the Harry potter fans..the draining out of happiness when the Dementors are around :P
And maybe this is just a culmination of staying at home the whole day..alone for most part and add to that cleaning my cupboard!not a grt idea maybe.
But then one has to learn to stay alone,be content being with oneself.Self exploration..or if that's done then just doing what self exploration has revealed as "like".It really shouldnt be that difficult. It Isnt. I like being on my own. Its just that at some point,while being alone my head fills up with all these questions about life and where i am headed and where mankind is headed,how does man fit into the universe,is curiosity ever going to help anyone,is enlightenment for real,are emotions for real and can the brain really make or break lives?!I dont know.its just questions...i dont think any concrete answers exist for them,so its ok.I am happy just knowing that i've atleast put my questions out for debate! :P
SO i think thats it...i m done with brooding. I have done 2 interesting things in the day: blogged and got my cupboard cleaned. And a friend just called so im going out for dinner..so yay!!! My life is back to being nice and happening!
I guess it was one of my famous phases where i go into "thinking mode" thou i'd like that thinking mode to reveal more concrete things.Hopefully,it soon will! :D
Adios!
